The Waiting Process...

The waiting process

If you've read my last article, you will remember that I mentioned that I was waiting on God for 11 months. Now that I’ve shared the outcome and the HYPE with you, I thought I’d share a little detailed background of what the wait looked like for me.

I want to say that I was the Christian who remained positive throughout the year, but there was a lot of whining and sadness going on for me. Let‘s go back a year from today. Before graduation, I had a lot going, to say the least. I needed another job because I needed financial support. I applied for jobs in my field, and I wasn't hearing anything back. I started to apply outside of my field as well. I have a recruiter friend who once told me I’m surprised you’re interested in these jobs, and I was like I’m not I have the skills and I need the money. I still didn’t hear anything back. I stopped applying for a while.

Fast forward to a couple months later, I started applying again. This time, I started receiving some calls back. I had a lot of great interviews- second interviews even. I still didn’t hear anything back. I think not hearing anything back at all was better than getting all of these interviews with no answers. I started to get really discouraged. I would vent to my friends any chance I get. My friend Nat- poor thing had to hear me complain about the same thing every Wednesday after Bible study. During Bible study, I didn’t even have to say my prayer request because everyone already knew what to pray for. They genuinely cared and would always ask me for an update.

I've seen opportunities right in front of me, and I was overlooked. But now that I am on the other side, I can see that this was all part of the plan. I got tired of telling people about my interviews because nothing would come out of them. I always needed prayer through it all, so I would only tell my bible study friends about certain things. For months nothing happened. I stopped applying again.

Then, I started again. I would apply for about 10 jobs a day. The tiring part about 10 jobs a day is that for every posting I had to edit my resume. That process really drained me. Then I prayed that prayer I mentioned in my last article, I prayed - God I don’t want to do another job for a paycheck. I want to do a job that I’m passionate about. All of a sudden I wasn’t applying to as many jobs anymore because most of the descriptions didn’t match what I wanted to do. Then, a few months later my current job came about. The process was not as fast as I expected it to be, so I grew weary again. I was discouraged and I gave up. I didn’t apply for any job anymore.

Then, it was time for me to go to a spiritual retreat with active word church that I signed up for months in advance. Before I even left my house, I said God I’m only going to focus on two things to pray for at the mountains. On the way to the airport, my friend ask me what is the job update? I remember sucking my teeth (sorry Anne) saying- at this point, I don’t even care. But deep down I did care. I was just too wounded.

When I got to the mountains, I remember just crying out to God asking him if he forgot about me, asking him if I wasn’t his daughter, asking him to make a way for me. I cried for a LONG time just pleading with God. After the two nights, I wiped my face and was like okay I think I’m done praying for the job, then I went back to God. I was like, please don’t forget about me.

While on the mountains, I wanted no communication with the outside world so that I could stay focus on God and spend quality time with my brothers and sisters. But, I would check my email once a day. I kid you not, while I was still at the mountains, I received the news about getting the job and I needed to do some paperwork ASAP. If you know me, you could imagine how much jumping down I did. I was smiling from ear to ear. I was singing on the top of my lungs. I was dancing. And I went back to God crying again being in awe of his faithfulness to me. He took me from a long way to show me that he is faithful.

I didn’t realize how much I needed that waiting time until I got the job. I needed to grow spiritually and professionally. I also needed to save because moving out of state is expensive(I promise at some point I'll write an article about moving). I only had about a month from the time I received the news to start. In the end, I’ve learned that God‘s plan is better than mine. So, if you see me ALWAYS celebrating this move, it's because my God is faithful and I've come a LONG way.

If you are in a waiting process right now, my prayer for you is that God will give you the strength to wait on him faithfully because he will always be faithful to you. Please be encouraged and DO NOT give up, God's timing is perfect- no matter what you are waiting on.

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Xoxo,

DD