Updated: May 10
Daenne's Journal Fam,
Today mark 2 years since I wrote my confession.
My Confession 09/25/2017
" I am finally admitting that my whole life I thought I was a Christian by knowing that the Lord exists and Jesus Christ came down and died for our sins, but now after Converge, I am asking myself do I really have a relationship with God intimately, and the answer is NO. That doesn't mean that I haven't been believing it simply means that I haven't been living for the Glory of God only. I haven't been following Him with my whole heart. My soul is not black nor white, I've been caught up in the middle serving with my half self. I've been taking control of my life, I've been doing things for my own glory.
I haven't been living by the word and for the word. I've been using my body as it is my own, I've been letting myself surrounded by the wrong people for the wrong reasons, I've been pleasing society instead of God. And this is my wake-up call. Lord I want to take it one day at a time into changing my life but I can't do it without you. Please show me the way, come to my life, take control of my life, for you are my only God."
When I wrote these words, I have to say I had no idea what it would be living up to them. Now looking back, I can clearly see that the Holy Spirit was at work in my heart. Only the spirit of God could lead me to make such bold statements.
I thought about changing a few things in my confession, but I didn't because that would defeat the whole purpose. I wrote "I want to take it one day at a time into changing my life and I can't do it without you." I really could not and I still cannot. I have seen God transforming so many parts of my life that I thought was unchangeable. I used to say things like, this is who I am, this is my personality deal with it because I'm just like that. It didn't take long for the Holy Spirit to work on these things. It has not been easy, but God's grace has been covering me for the past two years. God has been transforming my heart daily. Not everything in my life is perfect. Nothing in my life will ever be perfect for as long as I live in this flesh. But, I choose to die to my flesh daily. Through the high and the low, I keep my eyes on God.
Last year, on this date I wrote "Daenne's Salvation Testimony" (Click here to read). In this article, I gave an overview of what happened two years ago. I would love for you to check it out if you have never read it before. But, I just want you to know about the many people that God used in my life to lead me to Him.
India, she started to pray for my salvation from the day that we met. She is such an amazing woman of God; I am beyond grateful for you girl. I am grateful for Kari who started to love me unconditionally from the day we met. She cared for me and listened to me when she barely knew me. I am beyond grateful for John who started to disciple me since the very first day I had a conversation with him without realizing it. I am grateful for Pastor Tom who preached the word at Converge that led me to believe.
It did not stop there. Upon my return to Miami, I was looking for a church that would help me grow in my faith. God led me to Christ Centered Church . where I have been growing in my Faith and forming long life friendships. I am just thankful for my faith family at C2. I am grateful for Pastor Derek who God has truly use to plant the word in my heart and disciple me while giving me different opportunities to use my gifts at the church. It is so important to have a church home to do life with. It goes deeper than just attending church on Saturday or Sunday.
Who would have thought that two years later I would be making an announcement at a church in Miami about hosting a similar event to the one that led me, Christ? A little backstory here, there was an outreach event that was hosted by the BCM at the University of Louisville which led to everything.
God is an amazing God. He does everything for a reason. I would have never thought that my experience at that event would have any impact in the future, but God had a plan all along. Wherever you are in your journey today, I want to encourage you to keep on believing that God has a plan. Although both you and I may find our situations hard to understand, or find it difficult to see any good that can come out of them, but trust and believe that God always has a plan. If only we could get to see the full picture, we may think. But, if we did, then we wouldn't need him. Keep on believing.